Still Crazy after all these years

I have always been too competitive. Always. So tonight, after a high stakes game of C league hockey, I left the rink insensed. Insensed. I am dumb-ass. I should be greatful for my health and blessings, and I'm pouting like a two year old because I didn't win. I didn't even play all that bad. But not good enough to win. And I think the thing that chaffes me the most, other than my infantile behavior, is that I made mental mistakes. Never lose your cool. Goalies never lose their cool. If you lose your cool. You lose. We lost. I acted like a jerk. I shook everybodies hand and all. I wasn't rude. But I was distinctly pissed.

I did share some dialogue about this with my wife. She confirmed my jerkness. Oh well. Shoe fits, wear it.

I still maintain that you should drink life to the fullest, and in doing so some glass gets broken. Still a lot of Joy.